Victim of the Fashion Media

I am writing this following the nationally televised Victoria's Secret fashion show. At the moment, I feel terribly ugly and hopelessly fat. Why do we (women) allow the media to control how we feel about our looks? Who are they to say what's beautiful and what's not?! Everyone knows that being so thin is unhealthy, and the actuality of most women being a size 2 or 4 is slim to none, yet we obsess over it. Women kill themselves trying to look like every woman on every advertisement in our favorite magazines and it's wrong. I wish that I could say I have made complete body peace with myself, but I would be lying. I have some days that I am completely happy with my body, and others that I want to go to Walgreens and load up on laxatives until I reach my unhealthy goal of 115-120. I am fully aware that at my height of 5'5, that weight is under weight and highly unhealthy, yet I want nothing more than to be that size. It is sad that I am willing to take drastic measures to weigh the magical number of 115. I have tried hydroxycut, no carb diet, slim fast, great amounts of cardio, and I have an Acai weight loss supplement coming in the mail. What is happening to us?! I know for a fact I am not the only one. Ladies, we have got to stop it. Everyone is beautiful and every woman has a special quality about her that makes her especially gorgeous. I feel rather distressed about this right now and don't really know what to do, but it's just really sad how much power the media has over me and most women.